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youaregonecas
04 December 2016 @ 10:52 pm
SPN REWATCH || S01E01: Pilot (1.1k)
it’s the night after the fire, his brother is tossing and turning in the bed next to his and Dean can’t  get his mind to shut off. (gen, discussion of the days after Mary’s & Jess’s death, alcohol //, drug mention, smoking //)

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Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: Alessia Cara ft. Sebastian Kole- Stone
 
 
youaregonecas
04 December 2016 @ 02:30 am
With the new season being played right now (and to be completely honest, my enjoyment of the series disappearing slowly) and me not quite being caught up, I thought this was the perfect time to rewatch the show. To do something with that though, I've decided to write a little something for every episode (since I'm also a bit rusty on my Supernatural writing).
These can be anything; from fix-it's to coda's, just little scenes written out further or things tied to the episode. First couple of seasons will feature mostly gen fics (some Sam/Jess and possibly Dean/others mentions and/or works) and later ones might be Dean/Cas, but we'll see when we get to them.

Let's see how far we can get.


Season 01
E01: Pilot
 
 
Current Location: in my nice and comfy bed
Current Mood: draineddrained
Current Music: Faded - Alan Walker
 
 
youaregonecas
01 November 2016 @ 11:20 am
Author:youaregonecas || Artist: hellosaidthemoon
Fandom/Genre: Supernatural, AU,
Pairing(s): Dean/Castiel, Jo/Anna
Rating: Teen and up
Word Count: 17.999 words
Warnings: missing persons, hospitals, descriptions of wounds, grief, tattoos,

Summary: Two years after Sam disappears, police officials inform Mary and Dean Winchester there are no more trails for them to follow. The case is cold until new evidence makes its way over to them. It’s the day Dean gets his first tattoo. In honour of Sam. That night, he walks out of the tattoo shop with not only a brand new toy soldier tattoo on his thigh, but also with a crush on his ridiculously cute tattooist Cas.

As life continues and his relationship with Cas unfolds, life proves it will keep going on even without his brother and maybe, he should move on too.

 
 
youaregonecas
13 April 2016 @ 07:08 pm

Title: Hold Me Close
Author:youaregonecas
Wordcount: 39.166 words
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Castiel/Dean, Amelia/Jimmy, Anna/Ruby, Sam/Gadreel, Sam/Jess
Tags: soldier!dean, au, domestic au, kid fic, art teacher!cas, referenced character death (of a minor character), deployment, minor Character Death, Christianity, Grieve, Cemetery, Aromantism, Asexuality, Asexual Character, Aromantic Character (minor characters), Fluff
Summary: In his entire life, Castiel hadn't expected diapers, baby bottles and nights without sleep because one of the kids had a rough night to ever be in his future. Yet, it is. Dean and he spend days logging around strollers, trying to make ends meet and working through their problems.
If he's honest, the only thing keeping him on top of it, is Dean and Dean? He won't stay forever. After all, his boyfriend is a soldier. They spend the first few weeks of them taking care of the kids in a steady pace; Cas taking the time to work through losing his brother and enjoying each other's company. Dean's deployment crawls upon them when they expect it least, the date coming closer and closer with each passing day.

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Prologue || Chapter One || Chapter Two || Chapter Three || Chapter Four
Chapter five || Chapter six || Chapter seven || Chapter eight
Chapter nine || chapter ten || epilogue

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youaregonecas
10 April 2016 @ 02:11 pm


wordcount: 7.1k


Chapter two; when memories clingCollapse )
 
 
 
youaregonecas
20 March 2016 @ 05:30 pm


wordcount: 7.515 words

Chapter one; Dear PhilipCollapse )
 
 
youaregonecas
04 March 2016 @ 10:59 pm
Heal All Wounds || prologue



words; 5.584 words
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youaregonecas
04 March 2016 @ 07:37 pm


H E A L    A L L    W O U N D S





"I heal all wounds but those love hath made."





John Laurens didn’t die. The word that the war was over reached the Brittish troops in time, and the battle never happened.
History reimagined; the tale of a founding father with his lovers by his side. Tragedies happen, affairs arise. Politics is still a battle ground and people get hurt. The only difference is that Alexander Hamilton has someone there to ground him at all times.
The story of Alexander Hamilton and his family through laughter and tears, through happiness and grief. From cradle to eventual death.
>> John/Alexander + John/Martha + Alexander/Eliza
>> archiveofourown || tumblr
C H A P T E R S
                             >> Prologue; 5.584 words

ACT I; 'You have married an Icarus'
                         >> dear philip; 7.515 words
                                         >> when memories cling; 7.296 words

ACT II; 'he has flown too close to the sun'

                       >> Epilogue; 0.000 words


D I S C L A I M E R;

I'm basing this fic off a limited knowledge of the civil war and eighteenth and nineteenth century.
All information that I do use is either from the musical itself or the biography written by Ron Chernow that Lin-Manuel Miranda references. [+ some basic research on Wikipedia and more specialized sources.]
If something is written that is not right, please feel free to tell me and I will do my best to right my wrongs.
 
 
youaregonecas
09 January 2016 @ 09:31 pm

REDUCED TO DUST
Sam/Gabriel | 27.9K | Explicit | AU - All Human, Coma, Suicide Attempt, (more later.)
summary: Sam Winchester thinks that he is broken, nothing but a waste of space. He failed being himself, failed college and now, by not trusting anyone anymore, he's failed the world too. He's failed being a good daughter and a good sister. He's broken, shattered and most of all, he just wants it all to go away, he wants to disappear. Disappear is what he can go, as he shrinks the world will forget about him, people won't remember him. He'll be gone. It's all he wants, it's all he needs.
After an unsuccessful suicide attempt, Sam ends up at the ER and in a coma. As his coma progresses, Gabriel realizes more and more how broken his best friend is and how he doesn't care if Sam thinks that his family won't want to see him like this. He makes it his mission to bring them together again.
tags: Depression, Transgender, FTM Sam, Eating Disorders, Anorexia, Self Harm, inspired by wintergirls, destructive thoughts, er - Freeform, Hospital, ER nurse Gabriel, Alternate Universe - College/University, college dropout Sam, Purging, mentions of purging, Suicidal Thoughts, wish to die, mentions of scars, mentions of binging, fear of gaining weight, dysphoria mention, Wounds, Blood
authors notes: Again, one of my catch up pieces of writing. This was the otpficamonth prompt for September, namely School. (I really am behind on a lot of these jfc.. You'll probably notice that I used the prompt relatively loosely here, but one of Sam's main struggles is the way that he struggles with having to drop out of university. He feels like he has failed the only thing that he was good at. This will pop up for the first time in this chapter and later in the fic.
I do need to stress that this fic can be incredibly triggering for anyone. Sam Winchester is an ftm trans guy, he suffers from disordered eating that would (according to me - it is what I am going for at least) fall in the anorexia category, self harms, has a very disordered and self destructive thought pattern. With this comes his suicide attempt and the depression. This suicide attempt lands him in the hospital and renders him unconscious for longer period, after which he's admitted.
A lot of this is either referred to or portrayed in a graphic way. Especially the eating and depression. Please, if this is one of your quirks or triggers stay way from this fic. Stay safe.
(Should you feel like I forgot to tag something or there is something that I should tag, please do tell me.)
This fic was mainly inspired by the book Wintergirls written by Laurie Halse Anderson. If you want a recommendation on a book concerning eating disorders, this book would be a recommendation. Please take care however, as it is a triggering book.
 
 
youaregonecas
05 November 2015 @ 10:37 am

Title: Hold Me Close
Chapter: Five; birthday girls
Wordcount: 3.625 out of 24.594 words
Rating: Explicit
Pairing: Castiel/Dean, Amelia/Jimmy, Anna/Ruby, Sam/Gadreel (in later chapters), Jo Harvelle/Charlie Bradbury
Tags: soldier!dean, au, domestic au, kid fic, art teacher!cas, referenced character death (of a minor character), deployment, self harm mentions, mentions of scars, minor character death, grieve, cemetry
Summary: In his entire life, Castiel hadn’t expected diapers, baby bottles and nights without sleep because one of the kids had a rough night to ever be in his future. Yet, it is. Dean and he spend days logging around strollers, trying to make ends meet and working through their problems.If he’s honest, the only thing keeping him on top of it, is Dean and Dean? He won’t stay forever. After all, his boyfriend is a soldier. They spend the first few weeks of them taking care of the kids in a steady pace; Cas taking the time to work through losing his brother and enjoying each other’s company. Dean’s deployment crawls upon them when they expect it least, the date coming closer and closer with each passing day.
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